I don’t mind confessing that I am a little scared! I like to think I am a little funny and that I keep people amused at parties but being on stage in the spot light is a little different.
You may also know that I am a professional speaker so being in front of people is not a new experience for me. But there is a huge difference between cracking a few jokes during a one hour session and making people laugh constantly for 5 minutes.
5 minutes!! It is not long but it can seem like a life time. I had a routine written and I was pretty confident (to be honest I was a bit to confident!) and then I performed it in front of ten friends at
a workshop we had yesterday. Ouch!! Wasn’t that good. So I have spent a lot of yesterday and today rewriting my 5 minutes of comedy.
I have thought about doing this for ages. There is no reason for me to do this other than to go to the edge and peer over. I don’t want to fail. I want to be funny! In fact, to be completely honest, I want to get to the next round. For years I have avoided this but I can’t do it any more.
What about you?
Do you have times where you live on the edge or can you only see the edge from where you are?
“It’s somewhere over there in the distance.”
Spending time on the edge is scary, but fulfilling. My confidence and self belief are growing. My willingness to do the impossible or at least the unthinkable is growing. In fact the more time I spend on the edge, the more it moves further from me.
Photo: Flickr/Matt N Johnson